When I was a child my parents bought a special type recorder, combined with a waking alarm and a radio built in. I could set the clock and the radio would turn on automatically. It seems cool and one night I decided to set the clock for the next morning, so the next morning the radio turned on automatically, waking me up obviously. 

Nothing prepared me for what was going to happen. It's one of those things that catches you unprepared. 

I was all very sleepy when the mysterious sound of the flute woke me up. I felt like I didn't know if I was still on this planet or perhaps a different galaxy when the prayer started. It didn’t feel good, It didn’t feel bad it felt revolutionary. That moment changed me forever. 

 

You see, I am Jewish, but my family is not religious at all. Basic prayers and principles of Judaism are not part of the elementary school teaching program, and back then I had no clue about the importance and power of this specific prayer. And despite that, the first sentence of this prayer has returned automatically in my heart every night I went to bed and every morning I woke up, till this very day. 

 

Why does it keep happening to me? What does this mean? I feel like the moment before I go to bed I have a true and direct moment with the creator, and that moment specifically I feel deeply in my heart that I know I can be better, and I know that certain things I have done are wrong, but still I am pleading for mercy and compassion. And those words are so powerful.

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